5th

I wonder.. if I'd ever cross your mind

I dont know if you'd still wished we were together, I don't know know if you'd still text me later, wait.... will he even remember this date? 5 months ago was the happiest day of my life and 5 months later, here I am today, standing even stronger emotionally.Feelings waver but my love for you will never falter. There isn't a second you weren't running through my mind. Every night I look at our photos and tears will just flow. I look at the cards you did for me everyday and I wonder, do you even appreciate the things I have done for you. I spent at least a week to make a video for you and yet it was watched only once. I made a card during my test week, I doubt you even barely touched it and I still take it out from the bag to read it everyday.

I should have let go the day he wanted to, look at how happy is he now, even w/o me. Loser ugly duckling me still trying to pick herself up day by day. She cant get over him. Everyday she has to put on that mask to all the people around her to tell them she's ok. I want to fight for you but.. you don't allow me too.


Things wasnt the same 5 months ago, yesterday and neither will it be the same tomorrow but I know my God remains unchanged.

Happy supposed-to-be 5th. xx you deserve better..