I have came to a point where I do not know how to feel anymore. I know I will never feel happy in life again and there's no one to blame except myself. Even if we are going to be back together once again, my love for him will be from a whole new prospect, I'm sorry. But then again, I doubt the day of the latter would eventually come.

I'm hurt and I'm torn, yet I love you and I don't know how to move on.

Where is the happy Sheila who doesn't need to fake her smile? Even I myself, am desperate to find the old me.